Yesterday morning I went to a fantastic Meetup in Noosa at the PowerHouse Collective. It was a ThoughtStorm. There were five of us and we discussed two topics in one hour. The first was ‘What causes failure?’ (Lack of… / It’s just a judgement). And the second, ‘What is the function of imagination in children, and in adults?’ (It creates our reality). Whilst discussing these themes of thought, in the back of my mind was the fact that either my marriage is about to end or my photography business on the Coast will soon close. Do I deem either a failure? Hell no. Can I create something exciting for what’s next? Certainly yes!
So the last month has been a challenging one for me. Just as things began to come together with the pet photography side of things, they’ve been falling apart at home. I started to feel arthritis twinges again and chronic tiredness, which I’d been free of for the better part of a year, probably brought on by stress. Waz started a new job and was really happy for the first week or two, and then not so happy. The heat and humidity has been grating on him, and me, he works outside for 99.9% of the day and often in the full sun. Being a livestock farmer with a true country heart, the Sunshine Coast hasn’t been a place he’s wanted to be for a long time, but he has stayed here for me.
I’ve been viewing life a little too much through a camera or a screen and forgetting about things like regular fun, self-care, relationships, family, etc. Naughty …I know that now. But very easy to do when you’re setting up a business doing something you enjoy.
Unfortunately, it’s started to feel like a little honeymoon bungalow stranded between two concrete sky scrappers.
Waz and I had a few days of not knowing whether we were wanted to stay together in the relationship or not. But, it’s in these moments that life provides clarity on what really matters, and we decided to stick with each other. It is going to come with a few changes though. And one of them is leaving the Sunshine Coast. Of course, I will still be taking photos until then and beyond :)
It’s been a good reminder to not sacrifice health for wealth, and love for career, and really just be in the moment. As much as I am somewhat using the F-bomb in walking away from what I’ve built up here (which is actually just moving to a new location), I’m swearing so much louder with excitement for where our journey shall go next. We’re both explorers at heart!
This is something I wrote to Waz in 2012. (Words that just keep giving)
So it is a weird feeling. Sitting in your outback home-town on a Saturday night with your parents, feeling unknown. I’ve packed up everything I have and given most of it away. I do admire us, for we are brave.